Really Awake Now.

Okay , it has been 9 days since I last posted something here. Well , due to S P M I've promised myself to cut down my hours on Blogging , Facebook-ing, and etc on weekdays. So yeah , that is what I did , it helped a little , I now tend to at least open a couple of books and do some revision , THANK GOD. Also , got my result for the first term exam this week. It was NOT SATISFYING AT ALL. I regret, lingering and playing around throughout these 3 months since school started. I wasn't serious at all. I mean , seriously getting lower marks than how I use to when I was in form 4? And getting questions such as 'Your plane is going down , don't you think?' or 'What happen to you? You used to be hardworking in my class, and now you're just not.' from the teachers , this is just pure bad man. I feel so defeated, as if I'm the failure, I'm the dumb one. Maybe I am over reacting , I don't know , but what I know is , this year is an effin big year for me and I'm not working my ass off as everyone have been expecting me to do so. Well the first term result was such a big awakening for me, and I'm done playing around I guess. the hardworking Aleen is back people, and I hope I'm not just talking , and I and also hope that, I really work my ass off this time. Got to As the test next time. Wish me luck. (:




P/S :To those who were offended by my blog , I AM REALLY SORRY , this is just the place where I let out everything that disturbs me , or hypes me up. Please do understand? I probably don't mean what I wrote anyways,so yeah. (:




-A

Can't Seem To Get Your Words Out Of My Head -.-

Okaaay , I know you're just trying to help me in a way and make me realized that this year is my S P M year. But what you said , I just can't let it go. :( You made me feel so dumb, every time i flip thru my Econs book I just got lazier and hate Econs so much it used to be one of my favorite subject and all that , but I don't seem to like it as much as I liked it before. Gaaah , I know you are trying your best to help As my Ecns paper for my SP M. But it's just not helping at all. :/


-A

One Of The Best Day Everrr , :D

HAHA , finally. The seventeen year old Aleen got her eyebrows plucked 'professionally'. HAHA , went to the shop with Michelle Chong ,panicked like a baby as usual , pissed the lady who were doing it , yelled like shit , got people's attention which was NOT GOOD , more to embarrassment actually -.- THEEEEEN , finally. MANICURE AND PEDICURE PEOPLEEEE the BEST MOST AWESOME part of the dayy , so pampering mann. Got myself colorful nails now , I would so do this again and again and again :D



-A

Did I Ask For Your Opinion ?

SERIOUSLY , do you have to say it? Like , excuse me. Did I even ask for your effin opinion? THANKS A LOT , I was soooo happy before , but you just have to say it. Very smooth , call yourself a bestfriend? Think again laah. Next time , when you see a human being happy , leave them alone. All you do , is just bring them down.



-A

Your Love Is My Drug ;)

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind


Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!

My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead


Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love


I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you are away



-A / KESHA.

Learn How To Throw , Maybe?

Next time , aim on your FUCKED UP target properly then throw. Understand? That's how you throw things to people. First you AIM , then you THROW. Don't just throw without aiming smarty pants.Especially when its something HEAVY. -.- So yeah , thanks for giving me the panic attack and make me missed the last 10 marks by crying over your FUCKED UP jokes -.- THANKS also for getting me that free hug I very much enjoyed. :) At least there is SOMETHING GOOD in this story.



-A

Do I , Or Do I Not? :/

At first , liking you was for fun .Then we started talking and joking around. And ever since that I got to know the real you , through all the conversations we had , and to the jokes we laughed on. I noticed that , I don't just like you , I like like you. And I don't know if I'm happy or scared over this feeling. Knowing that this is the first time I'm feeling this. Eventho , people think that you're not my type , on how weird you are somehow this time , I don't care anymore. I really don't. I feel different around you , good different. (:


P/S: Exam week , can you get over sooner ? Seriously , I'm tired of brainstorming early in the morning. -.-



-A

Bestfriend Much ?

Seriously , I just don't understand how people can just change. From Good to Bad. You were so nice to me before. Now you're mean , I mean I know you got popular and all that , but is changing really necessary? You're different. You used to be this humble, and caring kid. Now you just remind me of a Jerk who likes to make fun of people just cause you got better looking , somehow. You're just not the same guy I used to call Bestfriend. I guess I'm not cool enough to get what's on your mind now , Cool Kid. Thanks anyways. -.-



P/S : What makes you think that its S? HAHA , think again Bitch. Thank You (:



-A

Finally , Seventeen. :)

I , Azleen Shafina has just turned seventeen on this day , 7th of March. THANKSSS TO THOSE WHO WISHED ME. I love you guys , so very much . Can't wait for the activities I'm about to do , for the rest of this day . THANKS AGAIN.



Love ,
A

Once A Bitch , Always Will Be.

Dear A,

I should have thought that being your friend is going to hurt me once again. I should have said no last time and play along with your 2 faces , back-stabbing games. I mean what does it lead to me now? I mean , I hate you even more than I was before. What was I thinking? That you will change? COME ON, I can be REALLY STUPID at times can I? This time I've really learned my lesson that the fact where you can just switch into one COLD HEARTED BITCH MAN. Yeah , that's right , you're like an on and off button where you can just switch into another person. Best part is , can't believe I fell for it.-.- Not to forget, I wasted A LOT of my time to accompany you with your activities. Too late to regret now , huh? And if I could turn back time where we haven't even met , oh man you have no idea how I would love to do so. :)




-A

Finally , It Felt Right This Time.

Woke up this morning , feeling different . Slightly fresh, happy, and somehow free. Went to school, first thing I did was talked about things I did through out my weekends last week to Myra. Once I entered the class, joked around with the classmaties. This time , I felt really free. Instead of talking to people about something happy , while in the same time my head will be thinking about that someone who I can't seem to get over with up to I don't even know when surprisingly , anyways I somehow reacted differently today. As I was joking around with the classmaties I was REALLY HAPPPY , this time , it wasn't just a fake laugh or smile , this time , it was real. I wasn't even talking about him today at all. I've finally moved on , 100% moved on. And that is absolutely something to be proud of. Finally, it felt right to laugh and smile with other people now.


P.S :Thanks to those people who sang the Justin Bieber song in class today.Shockingly , that Bieber song is playing in my head over and over and over again. SERIOUSLY , THANKS. -.-




-A

Laugh Out Loud -.-

Its not wrong to speak English , you low mentality,lifeless Bitches. And that joke you made , HA HA , it was not funny AT ALL. Try crack me another joke and make sure , it make sense and maybe that way I CAN UNDERSTAND. Thank You. :)



-A

Click , Click and Click.

Today, surprisingly was picture day. You know, the day at school where a photographer snaps some pictures of you with your classmates to remind you of your days in high school. -.-As usual, I was nagging about my never-ready-for-a-photo-shoot hair not to forget I just had a haircut like few days ago and I'm still pretty much GETTING USE TO IT. It was nerve racking somehow , I mean its like PICTURE DAYY MAAAN, the pictures I'll show my kids sometime in the future. But in the end , everyone made it look so easy , and told me that its just pictures , besides its my senior year, why worry so much ? HAHA , in the end , I HAD SO MUCH FUN during the photo shoot not caring about what people think about my hair and smile. Amelia was the only one who wasn't there. Devastated, yeah. Sat next to Naj , and Ainun. Who cares what I look like , its high school. Senior year, I think we should not worry much about what people think because in the end we'll be the one who are missing the fun. (;




-A

The Lazy Kid Got Lazier.

On this one week school break , I Azleen Shafina has been getting lazier than I ever was before. I have been doing nothing but pampering myself with television and food, fattening, non-healthy but oh-so-good type of food. I also slept for more hours than I used to. I mean 9 is normal, but 11 hours? Seriously , I sleep a lot lately. Plus,I think I am slowly , gaining weight without noticing. Besides that, I have been filling my days with some outings with my friends. Which only made me spend more money , and getting tired easily. And this gave me easier excuse for me not to study , which is 'I need some sleep, before I study so I would feel more Fresh and could concentrate more.' And that didn't help much, because every sleep I took , were like 10 hours and above which only made me sleepier once I woke up. I think the last time I went through a book was last Friday, and that doesn't count because that was the last day of school before school break even started. -.- To top this, school starts in like 2 days , I bet it'll be hard for me to catch up since I'm Lazier now.




-A

All Chopped Off.

Tuesday was really fun , I went out to Pyramid planning on watching a movie but then , turns out Valentine's Day were fully booked for noon. So my friends and I decided to go shop. Ate like 3 times in like 5 hours. HAHA . 3 words Fat Te Ning. But it was really funn though. At the end of the day , I rounded all my spending of the day. Spent like hundreds, WHICH I really do regret. Knowing that I have VERY LITTLE money now. -.- Can't turn back time, can we? Haha. THEN , came Wednesday. I woke up with a phone call saying 'HAHAHAHA, ALEEEN TIDO LAGGIIII'. Had a group discussion for the English Oral. Instead of discussing , my group ended up cutting my LONG HAIR . At first , it was fun knowing the last time I had a short haircut was during standard 4. But it turned out REALLY SHORT. Not that I hate my friends' haircut , I just don't think it suits my face. Oh I don't know maybe I'm just not used to it yet. I'm just a little upset that my hair is chopped off , you know? :/



-A

Move On or Wait.

Okay , here's the thing. You make me feel so confused. What do you want from me , really? This thing that you're doing is REALLY REALLY bothering me. I just couldn't stop thinking about it. Like , do you want me to wait for you or should I just move on? Cause I'm starting to hate this waiting game of yours. It has been driving me crazy. If I move on , you'll just come back in my life and make me wait all over again so what's the point? I was over you man , then you came back . I mean SERIOUSLY? Help a little man. Now I have to do it all over again , thanks a lot Sir-Please-Wait-For-Me.




-A

14/02

As everyone knows , today was Valentine's Day. As usual , I had no one to celebrate it with other than the besties. -.- I went to 3 weddings today. I supposed getting married on Valentine's Day make it extra superb? I was so tired once I reached home. Not to forget , how hard it was for me to go to sleep last night. Try sleeping in the middle of two ladies who snores like a pig? And to that , I had like only 3 hours sleep , and woke up cranky and very demanding. Its very suprising I'm still awake. Anyways, as soon as I got home,took a shower , and lay on the only thing who understands. The Couch. I was potato couching for hours watching all the 'Valentine's Day' shows which actually made me feel slightly lonely. Everything on the telly was so sweet, and loving. -.- Even cried on some of the movies I've watched today. But only one , REALLY gave me the tingly feeling. And it was 'Nick and Norah Infinite Playlist.' Although its like an indie movie but it was so much fun to watch. It was like the perfect Valentine's movie. This is the kind of movie I would love to watch over and over again with a special someone on a Valentine's day sometime in the future. Even better , the leading guy was Micheal Cera, awesome much? ;) Here are some pictures from the movie 'Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist.'










-A

If you liked it then you should've put a ring on it,

I guess you're too late , man. You had your two months. You even made me wait. And everyone knows how much I hate on waiting. And now you're here again. Trying to make things to go back like how it was before. It just so happened that now , my ego is waaaaaaaay up high. And theres nooooo wayyy , for us to turn back time . I guess I've moved on. Thanks for the good days though. I had a lot of funn especially with your accompany. :)




-A

He Make Me Woke Up Late For School -.-

Slumdog Millionaire. It has been quite a while since I last watched this movie. It was on premiere on Star Movies last night at 10. So I thought , oh heck. Why not? I mean 10 o'clock is like to early for a 17 year old to go to bed. HAHA. Anyways , the movie was so good until I cried at the part where Jamal got separated with Latika, as usual. And and , I fell in love with Dev Patel , once again. I thought that I might just watch the movie halfway since I've already watched it before, but in the end , Dev was so good on playing Jamal , which tempted me to watch the whole movie. And that made me went to bed at 12am ++ . All I know was the next morning , it was 6.46 am when I woke up and rushed for school. Not to forget , Slumdog Millionaire's theme song 'Jai Ho' was stuck in my head the whole time I was walking my way to school and this is all because of him , Dev Patel. :D




-A

Confused.

I have been busy with school activities these days. Although it sounds healthy , but its really tiring due to the lack of sport I've been doing for the past 16 years. And, I still suck at doing it. But I still have to do it to get good grades on my curriculum since I've been doing REALLY bad for the past years I've been schooling. I also think that this has been affecting my studies too. Since I'm really tired , I could not concentrate in class anymore , all I've been getting was , the feeling to sleep which is really bad. And if I stop doing all my curriculum activities , that will affect my chances to get in a good University. Cause I've been told that Universities are not looking just on the achievement of educations there are also looking for kids with good grades on their curriculum which I really suck at. I'm just too tired to handle everything at the same time. Sometimes it feels like as if I need like a one week break from school and everything else. Seriously , its super tiring. Not to forget , I've been missing a lot in class. Also, I've been ignoring all the homework and assignments that teachers has been given me since January. Gahhh , if only S P M will end sooner.




-A

All Stressed Out.

It has been like three days since I last posted a blog. I've been so busy , until I could not even go out with my friends, and if I could dad would not let me. Since 'it' happened dad has been controlling me like I'm the most troubled child in this universe. Its my fault how this started anyways, I just had to get too emotional which made things a lot more worst but still I mean, don't use the 'You're taking S P M this year' excuse. Cause I know , you just don't want me to go out. -.- But seriously , dad? Cut me some slack, its freaking January man. I just feel so mighty stressed out these days. With all the homework , and assignments that I have to do for school. And I just need to go out, somehow. All I've been doing these days , other than assignments and homework was potato couching, and its not helping tiny bit, it just makes me fatter. Well , I hope , you will understand what I'm dealing with dear daddio.




-A

Addiction.

Okaaay , this song . Seriously , how addictive can it get? This song has been playing on my playlist for hours. Hours, and I can't seem to get it out of my head. I mean , I don't really listen to this guy or Adele as well, but this song , uh my god. Two words , Amah-zing. Give it a listen , maybe?




-A

Grew Up , Finally.

Sometimes, its better for us to leave them alone. I mean seriously, I finally found a solution for my problem. Find somebody else to talk to, somebody who is more fun to talk to, somebody who will make you smile or even better , happy. Eventhough he is one of your 'best of friend'. Because I find that , by doing this, I'll feel happy , rather than sad or envious. I mean all along , I've been doing nothing but hating the other girl. Why? Its pretty much a waste of time, and I've realized that its time to grow up. I can't always rely on him all the time. He's not my only friend,or the other way around. Plus look at it on the brightside I finally have the courage to linger around with other 'groupies'. And that made me , really happy and giggly than how I was before. I guess its just time for us to go our separate ways.




-A

Playing The Role of A Naive Kid.

Its not like , I did not know it was going to happen. I was just pretending that she was never here the whole time. And now she's REALLY here. All I can do is just watch both of them getting closer day by day . -.-



-A

Superb (;

One door closes, another opens. Bye, S. Hello, J.



-A