Really Awake Now.

Okay , it has been 9 days since I last posted something here. Well , due to S P M I've promised myself to cut down my hours on Blogging , Facebook-ing, and etc on weekdays. So yeah , that is what I did , it helped a little , I now tend to at least open a couple of books and do some revision , THANK GOD. Also , got my result for the first term exam this week. It was NOT SATISFYING AT ALL. I regret, lingering and playing around throughout these 3 months since school started. I wasn't serious at all. I mean , seriously getting lower marks than how I use to when I was in form 4? And getting questions such as 'Your plane is going down , don't you think?' or 'What happen to you? You used to be hardworking in my class, and now you're just not.' from the teachers , this is just pure bad man. I feel so defeated, as if I'm the failure, I'm the dumb one. Maybe I am over reacting , I don't know , but what I know is , this year is an effin big year for me and I'm not working my ass off as everyone have been expecting me to do so. Well the first term result was such a big awakening for me, and I'm done playing around I guess. the hardworking Aleen is back people, and I hope I'm not just talking , and I and also hope that, I really work my ass off this time. Got to As the test next time. Wish me luck. (:




P/S :To those who were offended by my blog , I AM REALLY SORRY , this is just the place where I let out everything that disturbs me , or hypes me up. Please do understand? I probably don't mean what I wrote anyways,so yeah. (:




-A

Can't Seem To Get Your Words Out Of My Head -.-

Okaaay , I know you're just trying to help me in a way and make me realized that this year is my S P M year. But what you said , I just can't let it go. :( You made me feel so dumb, every time i flip thru my Econs book I just got lazier and hate Econs so much it used to be one of my favorite subject and all that , but I don't seem to like it as much as I liked it before. Gaaah , I know you are trying your best to help As my Ecns paper for my SP M. But it's just not helping at all. :/


-A

One Of The Best Day Everrr , :D

HAHA , finally. The seventeen year old Aleen got her eyebrows plucked 'professionally'. HAHA , went to the shop with Michelle Chong ,panicked like a baby as usual , pissed the lady who were doing it , yelled like shit , got people's attention which was NOT GOOD , more to embarrassment actually -.- THEEEEEN , finally. MANICURE AND PEDICURE PEOPLEEEE the BEST MOST AWESOME part of the dayy , so pampering mann. Got myself colorful nails now , I would so do this again and again and again :D



-A

Did I Ask For Your Opinion ?

SERIOUSLY , do you have to say it? Like , excuse me. Did I even ask for your effin opinion? THANKS A LOT , I was soooo happy before , but you just have to say it. Very smooth , call yourself a bestfriend? Think again laah. Next time , when you see a human being happy , leave them alone. All you do , is just bring them down.



-A

Your Love Is My Drug ;)

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind


Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!

My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead


Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love


I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you are away



-A / KESHA.

Learn How To Throw , Maybe?

Next time , aim on your FUCKED UP target properly then throw. Understand? That's how you throw things to people. First you AIM , then you THROW. Don't just throw without aiming smarty pants.Especially when its something HEAVY. -.- So yeah , thanks for giving me the panic attack and make me missed the last 10 marks by crying over your FUCKED UP jokes -.- THANKS also for getting me that free hug I very much enjoyed. :) At least there is SOMETHING GOOD in this story.



-A

Do I , Or Do I Not? :/

At first , liking you was for fun .Then we started talking and joking around. And ever since that I got to know the real you , through all the conversations we had , and to the jokes we laughed on. I noticed that , I don't just like you , I like like you. And I don't know if I'm happy or scared over this feeling. Knowing that this is the first time I'm feeling this. Eventho , people think that you're not my type , on how weird you are somehow this time , I don't care anymore. I really don't. I feel different around you , good different. (:


P/S: Exam week , can you get over sooner ? Seriously , I'm tired of brainstorming early in the morning. -.-



-A

Bestfriend Much ?

Seriously , I just don't understand how people can just change. From Good to Bad. You were so nice to me before. Now you're mean , I mean I know you got popular and all that , but is changing really necessary? You're different. You used to be this humble, and caring kid. Now you just remind me of a Jerk who likes to make fun of people just cause you got better looking , somehow. You're just not the same guy I used to call Bestfriend. I guess I'm not cool enough to get what's on your mind now , Cool Kid. Thanks anyways. -.-



P/S : What makes you think that its S? HAHA , think again Bitch. Thank You (:



-A

Finally , Seventeen. :)

I , Azleen Shafina has just turned seventeen on this day , 7th of March. THANKSSS TO THOSE WHO WISHED ME. I love you guys , so very much . Can't wait for the activities I'm about to do , for the rest of this day . THANKS AGAIN.



Love ,
A

Once A Bitch , Always Will Be.

Dear A,

I should have thought that being your friend is going to hurt me once again. I should have said no last time and play along with your 2 faces , back-stabbing games. I mean what does it lead to me now? I mean , I hate you even more than I was before. What was I thinking? That you will change? COME ON, I can be REALLY STUPID at times can I? This time I've really learned my lesson that the fact where you can just switch into one COLD HEARTED BITCH MAN. Yeah , that's right , you're like an on and off button where you can just switch into another person. Best part is , can't believe I fell for it.-.- Not to forget, I wasted A LOT of my time to accompany you with your activities. Too late to regret now , huh? And if I could turn back time where we haven't even met , oh man you have no idea how I would love to do so. :)




-A

Finally , It Felt Right This Time.

Woke up this morning , feeling different . Slightly fresh, happy, and somehow free. Went to school, first thing I did was talked about things I did through out my weekends last week to Myra. Once I entered the class, joked around with the classmaties. This time , I felt really free. Instead of talking to people about something happy , while in the same time my head will be thinking about that someone who I can't seem to get over with up to I don't even know when surprisingly , anyways I somehow reacted differently today. As I was joking around with the classmaties I was REALLY HAPPPY , this time , it wasn't just a fake laugh or smile , this time , it was real. I wasn't even talking about him today at all. I've finally moved on , 100% moved on. And that is absolutely something to be proud of. Finally, it felt right to laugh and smile with other people now.


P.S :Thanks to those people who sang the Justin Bieber song in class today.Shockingly , that Bieber song is playing in my head over and over and over again. SERIOUSLY , THANKS. -.-




-A